Is it anxiety or is it real…

One psychiatrist told me I wasn’t being paranoid I was projecting my insecurities on other people. That kind of makes sense. Sometimes I’m not sure if it is my anxiety or if it is real.

I do not treat my social anxiety with medication. That is a personal choice I made a long time ago. (Everyone should make the choice that is best for them.) I have used tools I have learned in therapy instead. I have come a long way. When I was a teenager I couldn’t leave the house with out having a panic attack. Now I can run errands, shop, eat in restaurants, and go the movies alone. I drive places by myself. I took a 2 hr drive to the beach by myself. I work at a doctors office checking people in. I am very proud of myself for all of these accomplishments, but I do struggle with somethings.

I worry a lot about what people think of me. Sometimes so much that it can make me depressed or anxious. Sometimes I work myself up and get mad at people in my head. They have know idea I’m mad because I am non-confrontational. I try to remind myself that some of it is all in my head. But how do I know it’s in my head. Because of my anxiety issues when I was young I was not exposed to the normal social situations most people are when growing up. These situations teach you what to do. I am a socially awkward person sometimes. So, how do I tell the difference? I can’t always tell and I wish I could tell you. All I can do is try to calm myself down and think about what I am doing. Am I doing something that would cause this person not to like me? Am I taking my bad mood out on others? I have to look at myself. I can try to be do my best to get along, but in the end that is all I can do.

What do you guys do when you are having this problem? How do you get out of your head?


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